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From Friends, To You (Part 1)

  • Writer: Acacia Browne
    Acacia Browne
  • Jun 3, 2018
  • 5 min read

☆ ~ Here are the first bunches of people who agreed to and helped out with the idea that I had of getting different individuals all together who wanted to help + share their wonderful words of wisdom/perspective/stories/etc. It's all very much appreciated, I cannot even begin to explain how much... Thank you once again to everyone who did this (and those in the future who may as well; Why this is titled "Part 1.") It means a lot, and it definitely makes a difference. ~ ⭐

1. "Always try, even when you think you won't succeed." - Sparkynight

2. "Here's how to live life: Sing like no one's listening, dance like no one's watching, and love like you've never been hurt." - Tom

3. The following is a poem one friend wrote when he was struggling, struggling with a lot of things, but himself especially.

 

"A Letter to Myself

It’s been a while, hasn’t it? Since I last talked to you? Because it feels like lately all you’ve been doing is yell at me and I stay quiet. I keep holding back my tears, biting my tongue... I don’t want to look weak, but I don’t want to lash out at you either, so I stay quiet. Every word you spit in my face, every insult you throw at it… it doesn’t break my bones, but it hurts me in ways I could never have imagined, yet I stay quiet. Though, lately, they seem to bounce back a lot more than they used to, or maybe my sense of pain has just been dulled, so I stay quiet.

To tell you the truth, you’re not good for me. You like to beat me up when I’m defenseless. You tell me my problems don’t matter when I’m hurt. You call me an attention whore for reaching out to others. You confuse me with your mixed signals and overthinking. You make me feel alone and unloved when I need others the most.

You’ve made me lose motivation to become a better person.

Because maybe I really am that bad. I try to look ahead of me, towards the future, but you keep beckoning me to look back. At all the mistakes that I’ve made. And I know, there’s a lot of them, each one worse than the last, but you act as if that’s all I do, as if no one will ever love me because of it. And the thought of that hurts… So much.

You’ve left a hole in my heart where my inspiration and motivation used to be, because you keep bashing my work, telling me it will never live up to my expectations. I can’t even begin to count how many of my writings’ deaths you have on your name.

Even right now, when I’m going through a lot already, you just can’t resist to make me feel even worse, can you? Whispering in my ear that I don’t try, even though I do; that I will fail when I need to believe that I will succeed.

But I’m done taking this abuse. And if you think that means I’ll retaliate, you’re sorely mistaken, because I’m not going to fight fire with fire. If you think that means I’m finally going to leave you, you couldn’t be more wrong, because I need you more than anything. No, instead I will love you, because you’re all I have and I am all you have. I hope that one day, we can set our differences aside and work together to be better. You haven’t always been like this and I know that deep inside you’re still the same person I’ve once come to know, the person I’ve once come to love.

So remember, despite everything, I will always love you.

Love, Alexander

(Continued after poem);

 

Sometimes you lie at odds with yourself, but it's not productive to destroy that side of yourself, because you can't. There's no way you can destroy part of your personality and all the energy you put towards that is wasted, better spent making amends with yourself and learning to work together with that persona. Maybe you're not lazy, maybe you just need more time and a break more often than most, and maybe if you accommodate for that side of yourself, they'll no longer hurt you. Maybe you're not anti-social, maybe you just have a different idea of what fun is and a lower threshold of contact with other people, and maybe if you take pleasure in some alone time every once in a while instead of feeling guilty about it, you'll be more capable of talking to others. Maybe you're not a bad person, maybe you've just met people that make you believe you are, that have set a standard for what's good and bad rather than looking at things from your perspective, and maybe, just maybe, if you could accept yourself for who you are, flaws and all, instead of trying to make yourself fit in some kind of mold, then you can truly be happy and live a fulfilling life." - Alexander

4. "Happy Website. Beggers' can't be choosers. Responsibilities are your own. Do not be anxious about the next day. Live one day at a time. You Can Do It! I, believe in you. ♡" - Lore Lynn (This one's from me mum! lol)

5. "My name is Estela and this is my story. When I was a kid every little girl dream of is to be a princess and find Prince charming. Well for me that wasn't the case I didn't want a dress and pretty shoes. I wanted a bow tie and a suit. I was thinking " Why I can't be prince charming and save the princess" it seems I can't cause she is a girl.

As I'm getting older through the years I don't want to be prince charming anymore. I want to be better and break free not staying in the cage and waiting for someone to open it. When I was 15 I was afraid to come out to my mom and what her reaction would be, like disappointed at me or just yelled at me with anger. So I had to do it not holding back. As I approach to her I was nervous that I couldn't talk loud and my body was shaking but she didn't notice. I was like " mom I need to tell you something important." She was like " Sure what is it? " so I sat down on my bed and told her " I...like...girls" she just stood there for a second just standing and told me "Really?...I thought something bad happen to you. That's not news to me" I was surprise and laughing historically. I stood up and told her " love you mom!" And she hug me back. I am so proud who I am and what I became cause NOBODY is going to change that and tell me what to do is my fucking life. What about your life?...Don't let know one take it from you. Hold it and take care of it." - Ellie

- 10:38 PM

 
 
 

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